December 28, 2010

Wishful Thinking

Have you ever wondered what will your life be if you are not in your current situation? Not that I'm complaining. I am happy. I have a good husband and three wonderful children. This thing on my mind has been here for as long as I can remember.

My parents married at an early age of seventeen. By age 22, they already have four children (me being the youngest). When I was young, my mother used to tell me about my grand aunt Cynthia (sister of my paternal grandmother), how she wanted to adopt me since she does not have kids of her own. For whatever reason, the adoption did not materialize.

Learning about this adoption plan since day one, gave me many day dreams. I used to stare at walls thinking how my room would look like. Will I be taller if I lived with Aunt Cynthia? Whenever I felt Mama favored my sisters and brother over me, I just let my imagination wonder and see myself living with Aunt Cynthia...and it makes everything okay.

I first met Aunt Cynthia when I was seventeen. From then on, we send letters with each other. She even find ways on how to get me so I can live with her in the U.S.  I tried obtaining a U.S. Visa from 1998 to 2000 but I was denied thrice (ouch!). The three respective Consuls, gave me the same reasons: "you are young and single with no assets and properties to get back to. Sorry I cannot grant you a Visa".

Aunt Cynthia lives in California, she's now about sixty years old or so. Twenty years have passed since I last saw her. I long to see her again, to hug and kiss her.

Paging Ellen (The Generous) DeGeneres! I hope somebody from your circle get to read this post (though I actually don't know how many people read my blog). Please Ellen, fly me (via American Airlines, lol) to my Aunt Cynthia.

Whenever husband and I watch Ellen, I always tell John, I'm going to write Ellen about my wishful thinking. Why not? Ellen was the first to feature our very own kababayan, Charice. I cannot sing like Charice, but just like anybody else, I have a dream. I always have this dream of seeing Aunt Cynthia; and it's free to dream.


  1. Awww.. too bad tickets to US is not that cheap. Sana tulad ng Cebu Pacific noh? May P1 fare? Hihi.

  2. Jinky: yeah ang mahal nga! sana mabasa ni Ellen to at...malay mo..yipee! You'll be one of the first to know in case! Yes. keep the faith...

  3. aw. hingi tayo ng pixie dust kay tinkerbell. madali nalang mag isip ng happy thought.

  4. Fedhz: oo nga, I wish that's how easy life is...paging Tinkerbell...


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